I'm Not Failing
I'm Not Failing
I'm Done Fighting With You
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I'm Done Fighting With You

#002 - I'm Not Failing...I'm Done Fighting With You

In this episode I talk about:

  • Not meeting my own deadline and how I am actually NOT a ‘time optimist’.

  • How I have been trapped in my own head because of fear around sharing my truth, even though I need to share my truth in order to move on.

  • How I have been blocked in an all too familiar place of self-loathing and my bitchy inner-saboteur has been dominating these past few weeks.

  • Asking for names for my inner-saboteur by having listeners write in to elizabeth@imnotfailing.com 

  • Inviting my inner-saboteur to the dinner table, naming her, and getting to know her properly.

  • How I’m accepting all parts of me because I’m Not Failing…I am.  And, I’m done fighting with you.

  • Why I have decided to start this process toward healing at this time.

  • How I decided to seek a new therapist to really get to work

  • How therapy and mental healthcare shouldn’t be a luxury but an essential human need.

  • How I was living in a ‘quiet crisis’ within my own head

  • Seeking therapy was essential for my survival.

  • Inviting us all to consider how we feel in our own lives today, and ask where we are today and who we are living for.

LINKS:
Glennon Doyle’s ‘We Can Do Hard Things’ podcast episode #199 on Recovery

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I'm Not Failing
I'm Not Failing
I'M NOT FAILING is a creative platform in which I am using my spoken, written, musical, and visual VOICES to tell the TRUTH about being the daughter of a mother with NARCISSISTIC PERSONALITY DISORDER and HEALING from the COMPLEX TRAUMA inherent to my family of origin's isolated and abusive family structure.
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I’m Elizabeth. I am a modern, multi-faceted, middle-aged woman.
A LOT of different (overlapping and sometimes conflicting) labels and titles can describe me...MUSICIAN, WRITER, ACTOR, EDUCATOR, ACTIVIST, MOTHER, WIFE, FRIEND, NIECE, Emotional EMBODIMENT CHEERLEADER, and TRUTH-TELLER feel the most important to me now.
I spent a lot of my life feeling like I was failing at EVERYTHING. No matter what.
When things were hard, I felt it was exactly what I deserved. When things were easy, I obsessed about when everything would collapse so I could get back to things being hard (and exactly what I deserved).
Some of this angst was just part of life and learning, but a lot of it, as it turns out, was NOT normal. I was actually (not) dealing with COMPLEX TRAUMA from growing up within an isolated narcissistic family structure centered around my mother’s untreated NARCISSISTIC PERSONALITY DISORDER.
A few years ago I started telling the truth about how I grew up and began the process of actively reparenting myself.
It turns out that when we tell the truth about the bad stuff we can finally tell the truth about the good stuff too!
So here I am - feeling more ELECTRIC at this stage of my life than I ever have - USING MY VOICE to finally TAKE UP SPACE on the center stage in my own life!
I’m Elizabeth. I'm Not Failing...I AM.
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